Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will make me go in a corner and cry by myself for hours.

say it like you mean it

I still don't get why the first line a friend says to a not so close friend is "Hey! Haven't seen you in a long time... I miss you!" I always get this from friends on facebook. My reaction would be: 1. We've never talked beyond one word that is hey now how on Earth is it possible that you would miss me? 2. The reason I accepted your friend request is coz we were dormmates/schoolmates no more than that.

I'm a strong believer in saying what you mean and not over using it at the same time. I love you, I miss you is already cheap and becoming meaningless these days and that's sad. The worst thing you could do is add 'We should meet up' after 'I miss you'. When the person replies "tomorrow?" baru tergagap kau nak jawap.

So yeah.

i should upload a photo of me in the snow. or not. tee hee hee. on a heavier note, finals tak habis lagi and i feel like i'm free falling now. listen to the fray's oceans away and some trust ok! so best! love, hugs, and kisses. bye!

of thin walls and...

the finals.

stressssssssss

x_x

1449 I ain't no home.

For the first time in 4 months, i miss home :( i wanna crash on the couch like i always do, i wanna crash on my parents' bed in the mornings when mom's about to go to work, i wanna make cookies and cupcakes and apple pies in the kitchen, i wanna be in a home where there's a lot of ppl in it and where it's warm and feels like home coz there are human beings talking and busy being a family and not locked up in their rooms and minding their own businesses. I need more ppl to move to spartan village so that I have someone other than the four walls of my bedroom to talk to. I need human interaction for cryin out loud or else i'll wither and evaporate into thin air.

on leave.

Adrenaline's rushing through my veins and my heart's pounding faster and faster. I don't know what's wrong. Maybe coz I ate too much... No! OMG Focus! I feel restless. Like something bad is about to happen. I've been missing God lately. Life without You is hollow and meaningless. I've had fun, now it's time to go back. Wait for me Allah, I'm coming.

Now I can finally smile

It's hard to believe that i saw you again here, in the States. 3 months feels a lot like a year to me. Maybe coz of all the things that have happened. Or maybe coz time sometimes seem to move slower when you're not around. Have we changed much? Have I changed much? But you coming here has stirred the old memories and my emotions. Do you know that you are one of the few people who makes me tear up easily? I thought I've moved on but looks like there are still some pieces left behind. Untied loose ends. And I want it to stay that way. I want our memories to be left as that. Instead of reliving it which would be too painful, create new ones like yesterday. I want us to be best friends till we're old. Distance would make it impossible for it to be like the old times. And we will definitely drift apart but... I hope it wouldn't be too much that we couldn't sit down one day and catch up on all the things we've missed out on each other's lives.

We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often. wo ai ni ai mei rui. u know that right?:')

"Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends."